Wednesday, July 10, 2013

"What's your major malfunction?"

Well, thankfully, I don't have one anymore.

Why was my mind so messed up, jumbled, and having such odd, anxiety-ridden, and sometimes seemingly contradictory things pop into my head?

Why was it so jacked up?

Why would the odd thoughts racing through my head seem to contradict the qualities and attributes described of me in scripture? 

(Well, first off, they are thoughts, not feelings. They contradict nothing. It is important to know the difference. I try to drown out all of the noise and concentrate but it is difficult sometimes.)

I know that God is not a man that he should lie.
You can take the scripture at its word.

So, what was going on?

Keeping that one metal album in my collection that was in direct contradiction to my moral and religious beliefs. Notice not every metal album had to go, even though I am not a humongous fan of metal. Just one. (God is indicating that although he has standards, too many people are hyper paranoid, superstitious, and restrictive.)

That album stuck around because, you know...I just had to have that really cool guitar riff at my fingertips when I felt like hearing it.

The Lord revealed to me that it did not belong, and I knew that it was the offending party, and that it had to go. I kind of wrestled with it, but what I didn't know was that it was causing me psychological unrest.

All it took was the click of a right mouse button, a deletion of a single album, and a cleared recycle bin and my brain began to function, miraculously, MUCH more smoothly.

The effect was immediate, as others would testify.
Maybe even you.

This brought my memory back to the story of Saul in 1 Samuel, where due to his flagrant disobedience, God allowed an "evil" (KJV) spirit to engage him (It can be equated to one that "causes physical harm," or one that "causes painful hardship." It doesn't necessarily mean "evil" in the sense that we think of it today, as some sort of influential malevolent force, although it can apply in that sense. It depends upon the individual, their tendencies, and their temperament.

I'm going to bring you back to present day, now.

I've been caused some "painful hardship" by God allowing me to be oppressed (not possessed, which is impossible after being born into God's family) due to my own iniquity. My personal tendencies? Major, major anxiety, my vulnerability which evil spirits were given free reign to prey upon due to my disobedience. And trust me, with you people yapping and saying all sorts of nonsense, I had a lot to ruminate over in that severely handicapped state of mind.

Without a malevolent bone in my body, it is the perfect time to remind people of the difference between thoughts and feelings.

It's called "anxiety."
Look it up.

I've been set free from this spirit that has caused such painful hardship in my life.
Boy, can appearances be deceiving!
That being said, God's word is trustworthy, not men.

What are some of the main reasons this has happened?
The first was to discipline me and bring me into compliance with my Lord.
Imagine an undisciplined loose cannon running around.

The next?

To offer yet another straw to those who might have been collecting them that the spiritual realm does in fact exist.

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